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The Prelude


We waited. We waited until we were older, had better jobs, we were more financially stable, we waited until we were "ready". We put off starting a family to spend more time together, to get to know “us”, to grow together in our marriage. We were married for a little over 5 years before we decided we wanted to add to our family.

It’s been two years since I had my IUD removed. On February 10, 2016, Brad and I were excited about the possibilities of what lied ahead, and the new journey we were about to embark on, not aware of the long road we were getting ready to face. 

I have been semi-open about our struggles with a very small, group of people. I’ve kept a lot of the process, ups and downs, and all the emotions that go along with it to myself, not ready to really face what we were going through. I was really hoping, that something would eventually happen, and we wouldn’t have to tell people about our fertility issues, rather, we’d be telling them, we were having a child!

Neither my husband or myself have really been wanting to open up too much with other people about our struggles. It really wasn’t anyone else’s business, and I knew what would come, should we ever decide to share it. I knew a lot of positive things would come, but I also knew there would be some negatives. I wasn’t ready to be faced with suggestions, or comments from people who had no idea what they were talking about. Not to mention the “encouraging” comments, that would end up having the opposite effect. Comments that, unbeknownst to that person, would feel like a knife in the chest.  

For the last two years, we’ve heard the “you’re still young”, “just get drunk, it will happen” (yes, that’s been said), “your time will come”, “when you become a parent…”, type of comments. I realize by writing this, and putting our story out there, that more of those comments will come. I'm okay with that. I’m a much stronger person now, and, I’ve had enough time to think of some mic drop things to say when those comments are made! So, I’m ready to use them when needed!

For the record, comments like “I’ll be thinking and praying for you”, “that really sucks, I’m so sorry”, “let me know how I can support you”, "how are things going" etc. are much more appreciated.
                                                                                     
For months, I’ve gone back and forth about doing this, and letting people have a front row seat into this part of our life. But, I’ve decided that not only would it be a good outlet for myself, but it would also bring awareness, and help others in similar situations know that they are not alone. I get that it’s a touchy subject, and it's hard to talk about, but that doesn’t mean it’s not an issue a lot of people face. I have a few close friends who are going through similar situations and having someone to talk to who can relate has been so helpful. I'm hoping that if someone doesn't have that type of support, they can get it through this blog.  

 About 10% of women in the U.S. struggle with fertility issues. The idea is that this blog would shed light on just some of those issues, while searching very deep to find some of the humor. Through all the struggles, and ups and downs, there are a few humorous moments, mixed in with all the tears. 

So buckle up! This is our very bumpy, raw, detailed journey to baby. 

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