Our Journey To Baby

We wanted to do something big just the two of us before our family grew, so we decided to plan a trip to Europe.  In March of 2016, we were in Venice, Italy, it was the last stop on our trip. Seeing Venice was number one on my bucket list, and it was beautiful! But, it was in Venice when I had my first breakdown.   I thought we would find out we were pregnant that trip, but we weren't, and it was crushing. We'd only been trying for a month, but I was so upset.  As my husband and I sat on the rooftop of the air B&B, on an evening we should have been enjoying, I was crying. In between sips of wine and tears, he was consoling me.   Rooftop of the Air B&B I mean, the idea is that, you “pull the goalie” (as my husband says), and the following month you’re overjoyed looking at a positive pregnancy test. Right? Wasn’t that how it was supposed to go? Well, we pulled the goalie, but we weren’t pregnant.  The reality is that there’s only ...

We waited. We waited until we were older, had better jobs, we were more financially stable, we waited until we were "ready". We put off starting a family to spend more time together, to get to know “us”, to grow together in our marriage. We were married for a little over 5 years before we decided we wanted to add to our family. It’s been two years since I had my IUD removed. On February 10, 2016, Brad and I were excited about the possibilities of what lied ahead, and the new journey we were about to embark on, not aware of the long road we were getting ready to face.  I have been semi-open about our struggles with a very small, group of people. I’ve kept a lot of the process, ups and downs, and all the emotions that go along with it to myself, not ready to really face what we were going through. I was really hoping, that something would eventually happen, and we wouldn’t have to tell people about our fertility issues, rather, we’d be telling them, we were having a ...